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4:53 PM

Friday, December 31, 2010

as 2010 comes to an end

we always have to sum it allllll up in one post.

2010 was a hell of a roller coaster ride.

Lets start from january,

i went to bali

i had my attachment at afc.

went for xphysique with the twins,

(that one really test my endurance srsly.)

my birthday flew pastttt got to spend it with all my loved onessssss.

ooh,went to singfest!

knew my course mates better thru fyp

officially started cupcake baking thks to norfi's recipe!

first time go prawning

first time go kelong

went phuket

begin to hit ze clubs more than everrrr thks to lex&eugenia&bacon!

dress more like a girl nao.(i think)

serious mode in school now (trying)

affirmed super duper special friendships

thank you for everything!

no matter how annoying i am,you guys still stood by me

& help me get bk on my feet in my lowest moments.

got out of a fucked up 3 yr relationship w an ahole.

(who can fking leave me for another girl.

yup,nvr gd enough.)

got right back into another heh

omg.i still cant believe all this happened

it feels so surreal

im sure god made it all happen for a reason

for me to grow,to mature,

stop acting like a freaking kid,be wiser.

& dont be so nice.

i must have grown somehow from all this righhhht?

hopefully.

at least i know im not so blind anymore.

Lastly

fidy & i,

we like to have a toast for the douchebags

have a toast to the assholes,

have a toast to the scumbags.

yeah thats about it.

Happy 2011 everyoneeeee

3:47 AM

Thursday, December 30, 2010

i actually feel super guilty

i wonder what you say abt me to the rest of the world.

that i have more flaws?

ahhh.

4:03 PM

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

to start chasing me

and not just during soccer.

Hahaha.

Omg.

3:42 PM

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

this year's christmas

was better than i thought.

friendships were affirmed

i just love soaking in each others presence

downing a red or white, whiskey with greentea (urgh), orange juice with some weird liqueur.

all is good.

26dec

was spent at gab's after mass.

we celebrated bacon's twentythird birthday there

i got to squeeze everything out of my gab,

he got to squeeze everything outta me.

my childhood friend i swear,since primary school.

we promise nothing will tear us apart.

because i thought a while back he didnt wanna talk to me anymore.

Hah.

Afterwhich i cabbed over to jared's with mikey.

nice crib.

talked about everything else in the world.

we certainly came a long way.

i still rmbed 3 years ago,new years eve i was cycling with mikey

thats freaking 3 years ago!

and our shisha&kebab date we talked abt 3 years ago,

haven even came true yet,bummer.

thank you you guys for not giving up in calling me out hahaha.

thank you for being so ... honest.

27th

i went malaysia with fadhli

hahaha

first time taking a public transport overrrr

it was all good wasnt it!

finally went to his crossover!

finally bought something!

some bitch cut our queue haha

the car part damn funny.

walau my tp next thursday

im so scared.

3:30 PM

home is the best place to be.

swords may fly,

but its never short of love.

merry kissmas.

(still in kissmas mode)

but tryna start reading on epicureans

and many videos to edit &compile!

took this in phuket

when everyone was high on shots inside!

while i was high taking bokehsssss myself.

2:58 AM

you disgust me too.

im already trying.

see, everyone thinks its my fault.

there's just more to it that isnt revealed.

thats life.

shit happens.

2:16 AM

so is being self conscious good or bad?

because, just when i wanna break through from this barrier,

i crawl back into it agn.

have you ever felt as though no one truly understands you.

no one ever fathoms what the hell are your thoughts

they're just too messed up and thought out so carefully,too much that no

one understands it but yourself.

i really wish you can call me soon lord

smtimes staying on this earth just doesnt make any sense.

all these politics and such.

idk how to cover up and pretend nothings wrong.

everything's so wrong.

i dont even understand why ppl can leave me just.like.that.

i mean why are they so heartless to do that.

i am only me.

is our ship that fragile?

ever since that day i've lost all hope in the good things in humans.

and the words that they say.

do you know what you have done to me?

i dont even know what to believe anymore.

i rather finish my worldly chores & hopefully go up and meet god.

fast!

4:14 PM

Sunday, December 26, 2010

happy birthday bacon!

this holydays i nvr touch anything related to skool

so guilty uh,but i dont plan to, cause xmas and new year

is the best time of the year!

this first week was so fun!

more time spent with powder boy which is awesome uh

when skool starts we'll be so busy!

crossover tmr! (eeyer low class) haha.

7:33 PM

Saturday, December 25, 2010

merry kissmas everyone

happy birthday jesus!

why didnt i think of why we go around wishing everyone merry christmas so happily

when its not even our birthday,but jesus'.

same goes to weddings and birthdays. we arrive there,see the bride and groom,(wish we get married too),congratulate them with smiles on our faces,even if you dont knw them at all.we feel so happy for them! &why so? i have no idea,we just feel so damn happy for them.

this christmas came too fast i think.

this christmas i dont have the mindset of receiving presents but giving them.

this christmas,i didnt care abt covering up my flabby arms.

this christmas,i thought of last christmas.

the wontons,garlic bread,sleepover@my place.

this christmas,i'm glad i attended mass with faith and the twins.

this christmas,we had good company at the party

this christmas,i have grown up a little.

jesus i hope you're having the best birthday celebration out of the 2010 years you celebrated.

you know what's next?

2011.

new beginnings.

idk if i'm ready.

2010 was really a hell of a year.

good & bad.

2:54 AM

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

phuket was awesome!

im so happy everything happened the way it happened.

& also thankyou seanboy for the 4days date!

hehehe

3:44 AM

Friday, December 17, 2010

eh lepak buddy!

hiakhiakhiak.

enough sia your chain!

i think i brought clothes enough for a week?

yeah cause i nvr wanna come back.

just let me live with the fishes in phuket.

brought my fav baseball pyjamas pants!

i'll be back,in a flash!

12:07 AM

sometimes there are things in our life

that arent meant to stay

sometimes change may not be what we want

sometimes change is exactly what we need

and sometimes,saying gdbye is the hardest thing

you think you'll ever have to do

but sometimes saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down

and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible.

sometimes change is too much to bear,

but most of the time,

change is the only thing saving your life.

woah nice one uh

i kope from somewhere.

hope it makes you think somehow

hehehe

phuket in 10 hrs & i havent packed!

holymoly!!!!

10:28 PM

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

if anybody sees her

shine a light on her.

okay?

every wed always got smthg funny one.

today i bump into janice mag &faith, it was an awesome feeling doks!

one more day chiongggggg uh!

1:56 PM

fking addicted to shine a light by mcfly.

every week got diff fav song uh.

countdown:2 days to phuket!

2:14 PM

Monday, December 13, 2010

one more week

lets do this!

so glad everybodys bk home

safe and soundly.

i miss spending fmly time.

faith&ken meet up after i come bk okay?

1:46 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2010

yeah go and tell everyone how awful i am ok

wait till they see how awful you are.

i am disgusted by your behaviour.

anywayssss

to my very crispy strip of bacon

thank you for chilling with me tonightt

may we go through more upsssss than downs tgt!

thank you being with me throughout this process

i'll be there without a doubt too

i will miss you,please take care okay! :-)

i miss the boy who went to zoukout.

4:20 PM

Saturday, December 11, 2010

phuket exactly one week from now!

everybody thinks im not excited for it.

but i think i am uh.

awkward like shit.

bottoms up.

4:08 PM

shots shots shots shots everybadeh!

ytd kenneth called sharz by singing this song

omg hilarious sia

now we just gotta wait for the 22nd!

sorry sidetrack abit when i heard this song

what a lonely saturday

no one at home somemore.

if you h8 me so much

then why do you still come here?

& judge me for being what? childish?

puhleaseee just look at yourself.

yeah and you dont have to pass me the ball

you're the best la,no need to pass one.

all the best and i totally mean it.

1:25 AM

1:37 PM

Thursday, December 09, 2010

well wasnt that fun!

i nvr stop laughing with blossom & buttercup

& to you,abt time you grow up srsly.

11:10 PM

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

i fell down in the kitchen
can you believe it?
i cant haiz.

today my stomach took a churn.
hopefully all is good.

my boyfwen so busy he forgot all abt meeee

there are better days.

9:52 AM

Monday, December 06, 2010

so tireddd
the monday today i feel exeptionally snoozy
help eh i got a huge week ahead of me!
on my way to sentosa now!
late as usual!

did you see the number of likes?
omg man
siao liao lo.

today will be a gd day
dear god pls dont rain on us
:)

4:39 PM

Saturday, December 04, 2010

so fucking restless

i hate feeling like this the most

its a saturday & i spent most of it sleeping and thinking bout last time when i always! go out without fail and buy something new everytime i hit town.

i can punch the walls right now.

angsty sia.

9:56 AM

weekends agn

time is moving too fast

phuket is coming

christmas is coming

my workload gets more every single week

graduation is coming

so cant believe it.

ytd i went for my mummy's d&d

back2skl,

miss wearing my oversized aes uniform sia

god pls make all the raining stop

2:48 AM

Thursday, December 02, 2010

my bokeh not working

(that is not mine btw)

heart dont look like heart

triangle dont look like triangle

urghhh 2.49am i feel shitty

plus pile of dishes not done,

why i am in this cosmos?

gahhhh

12:57 AM

still waiting for my mum to fall asleep

though i knw there's no chance of gg cause

woodlands to powerhouse is like the other end of the world!

we got to go to the mbs koufu opening ytd

the place looked totally different from the construction days.

extreme sia! so freaking awesome!

& the whole evening was figgin hilarious with my girls& the lovebirds&ken

lesson learnt, dont be so greedy.

wonders of the 'nets flash pay' haiyoooooo

hahahaha.

today i got to watch agora for philosophy.

intense movie i almost cried at the ending.

such movies make me think again abt life

& our purpose here.

mygosh you make me so immensely happy.

9:29 AM

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

peer pressure i say

i can never break away from it.

how?

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